Why Would I Do This?

It's a weird thing for someone who doesn't have diabetes to do. It kind of seems like a fad diet right? Like a grapefruit diet, or only-eat-purple-foods diet, or whatever. But I'm not trying to lose weight.

The truth is, I have an undiagnosed (or over-diagnosed) mental illness. Basically, I have uncontrolled mood swings every 3-5 days. My moods are roughly on a cycle but all over the place at the same time. I've been on different medications, been in therapy for a few years, and while I have become functional(ish) again, I still struggle with serious anxiety and depression every week.

I'm interested in how lifestyle choices can affect my mood. One thing I've always done is self-medicate with food, especially carbs, ESPECIALLY sugar. When I was young, I used to eat sugar out of the bag with a spoon. Nothing sweet was safe in the house. Nothing sweet is safe in the house now, either. I eat sugar and other carbs (pasta, mostly) to wake up, to calm down, to comfort myself...and sometimes because I'm actually hungry.

I want to see what happens to my mood if I can keep my blood sugar stable. Eating like a diabetic is the most systematic way to control blood sugar. Simple as that.

I bought three pizzas, a coke, and Diabetic Living today at the grocery store. Very confusing for the cashier.